♥Sitinurfatinsyamimi♥

go je pongg boleh .

Eh hi , Whats the big deal with my smile and laughter i'd got nowadays ? Its just so fake . FAKE . Again , i want to hear more of you , please don't wait . Lets just go straight again . Yes I’m scared, yes I’m jealous. I’m scared that you think she’s pretty, I’m scared that you find her more interesting, I’m scared that you think she’s so much better than me, I’m scared that you’re gonna leave me soon. And yes I’m jealous that she gets to see you, I’m jealous that you talked to her, I’m jealous that you had fun with her. I’m scared.. I’m jealous.

But that’s only because you mean a lot to me. I can't fight these feelings any longer , i admit and it leads me to who i am now . I don't behave well and pretending i don't bother much where actually i'd been thinking and worried about you most of my time . I know i am choosing paths that will make things get more complicated .

Sorry . Its not that i am not trying . I did and i am still trying but it depends on the situation we are in . Yes , you don't feel anything now and you won't know how often i am actually thinking of you . Yes i've changed and i am pretending that i'm not but its just because i don't want to look so weak in your eyes . Ohh , Only God knows . Just for you . Sometimes my silence means , i simply just can't find the right words to fit in everything where actually i wanted to share with you so much , i really do but i suck . hmmm I hate that part of me and that's when i strongly go " nevermind , just forget it , i suck . " sighs ... Alright , i am feeling tooooo restless , i dont know how i should continue from here . Please Please Please fully recover faster sitinurfatinsyamimi ! I am too tired of you being so weak already . Toodles .