a gift for myself

I laugh hysterically moment i sign-ed in to my plurk account. why ? because my karma decreased till Z E R O hahaha last i remember my karma was 70+ HAHAHA Thanks to rya for reminding me that i have plurk the moment you changed back to plurk HAHAHA Konon nye dulu nak stop plurking sekejap, end up sampai terlupe HEH. Alright i'll start from the start okehh BOReeeeeeeeeeNG :/

Spent my day greatly with rya eventhough its kinda tiring HEH Forever dating alright we both. I had my NASI BRIYANI alright. Thanks bby for accompany-ing me fulfill my craving :] Lucky me you tak jentik bontot i ehh b sebab tak habis HAHAHA then jalan talk laugh jalan talk laugh jalan talk laugh jalan talk laugh jalan talk laugh jalan talk laugh non-stop ! Ehh ade one minute silent moment jugak. cheeeeett HEH tetap I'LL TRY MY BEST TO MAKE ALL THE PARTS THAT WE FIND TOGETHER, HAPPY. I WANT BEAUTIFUL DAYS BY OUR SIDE B. Iloveyouforeverandalways.

I'm stuck somewhere. I wish i could share everything that bothers me. There's too many problems attacking till it all stucked and nothing came out the moment i wanted to share, one after another. Ohh for goodness sake, give me a break. Most of the time i totally agree with what some say " whenever people don't express themselves, they die one piece at a time ". DAMMIT !

Okehh alright, let's not deny the fact that i am used to keeping it to myself. psft. Just say whatever you want, i shall stay the way i am, i don't give a damn and i won't accept no one's definition of my life. Yeah stubborn. Like i told girlfriend, KILL ME PLEASE !

Its really amazing, just how much pain human heart can take right ? The heart has its reasons which reason knows nothing of. Sometimes we waste our words, we waste our moments and we don't take time seriously to say things that are in our hearts when we have the chance.

SNR, I don't know how to tell you already, i miss you badly. I can nangis y'know. tskk Insecurities poisoning me every single minutes and seconds. Pray for me to be strong and kill the negatives thinking in me bby because i am so weak alone and i can't bear to feel all this. It hurts the both of us, i know. No need to remind, you should know i always love you.

Bottom line,

I talk too much ! This post getting longer already, i want to diam &&& i want more ROSES please HAHAHA okehh byyyyyyyye earths.